I’m always looking for ways to improve my life. Sometimes I find really big things, but sometimes it’s smaller. It’s not that my life isn’t good enough – it’s just sometimes I think maybe I’m not grateful enough – or fail to appreciate the here and now enough.
A while ago I was tagged on facebook to write three things I appreciated every day for 7 days or some such, and then I was supposed to tag a bunch of people. Most of the people I knew had already done the exercise… but I also thought it was kind of sad that we all did this for seven days and then stopped. Why did we stop? I loved reading other people’s stories, and I wanted to keep sharing mine. So, I made this big pronouncement that I wasn’t going to tag anyone, but that I would continue to write what I appreciated and everyone else should too.
It was amazing how no one took my advice… not even myself. I did not continue to write about all the things I appreciated, instead I shared articles and liked people’s posts and occasionally made noisy statements about things that made me passionate. But the daily appreciation fell to the wayside. A few days ago, I read another one of the articles in my newsfeed – and it spoke about how to really be happy, in the here and now, we should write, every day – every morning ideally – three things that we appreciate.
I remembered my decision to do so – and how it had fallen to the wayside almost immediately (did i even make one post beyond the requisite 7? I don’t think I did…) And I felt inspired, to take up what I had so casually set aside. So, for a couple of days, I posted three things. I didn’t make any sort of big pronouncement about it… I just started doing it. A few people have liked it, including myself. Maybe most importantly, myself. But I realized that I would rather do this someplace where I could share it with people who aren’t on facebook. And I wanted someplace to keep these memories of things that happen day in and day out that are important, and that I’m thankful for. So, I’m going to start writing them here. And hopefully – I’ll do it daily – or at least most days.
To start – I’m grateful for word press. It makes a cool place, to keep my writing and allows me to share it with others. It’s really easy to publish to facebook, linked-in and probably other places I don’t really frequent, but maybe other people I know do. I enjoy typing my thoughts and I’m happy I have this place.
Secondly – I’m really really grateful that Rusty’s surgery went well. It was a minor surgery, but any sort of invasive procedure is scary. He’s sitting here patiently waiting for me to write this, while his eye is covered in ice to keep the swelling down. I love him so much – it would be scary for me, if something happened to him. So I really appreciate that the surgery went well.
Finally, I’m grateful to Chloe. It’s kind of silly, but I have this class I’ve really been enjoying. The professor is so thoughtful and interesting and he has a lot of insights about psychology and theory and politics. But he’s old. And he’s come through a very bad bout with cancer. He lost his wife. He’s only just returned to teaching and there is definitely some cognitive decline. Tomorrow, is his birthday. Chloe is a sweet girl in my class. The one who asks a lot of questions, but also asks who you are, and introduces her self in a friendly and forthright manner. Chloe, decided that we should celebrate our professors birthday – because even though he tends to meander in thoughts, he is a real treasure and we are lucky to be learning from him. She made a card, and had us sign it. She asked us to bring in cupcakes, but when no one volunteered – she made a cake herself (actually – 4 people brought in goodies, so it turned into a potluck of sweets.) And when we played the song that Nick had picked out for his shabbatz birthday – he cried as he blew out the candles, so touched was he that we cared. So yes, I’m grateful to Chloe, for orchestrating and organizing that. It mattered.